Regular, every-day stress is NOT nicely complimented by a child.

Did you know that "Zabana" is not actually Native American for "meadow," but instead, "sounds like newborn piglet when crying obnoxiously"? I learned that one today, too.

And now she's crying because she just got out of the bath, and her arms aren't dry.

SOMEBODY NEEDS TO GO TO FUCKIN BED, LIKE NOW.

Just had a whole goddamn novel-long entry typed out, and my iPod has failed.

PISSED.

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Baby mama drama. All over the place.

I'm definitely disgusted that someone can be that stupid. And worse off, she pro-created. Tragedy, really. I hope idiocy isn't a genetic thing.

Done.

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Ever run into someone years and years later (specifically someone who had significance at one point) and think to yourself, "Good christ, so-and-so got REALLY hot!"? 'Cause yeah, I just had that thought.

God, do I love Facebook sometimes.

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January.

I have until January to learn all sorts of parenting know-how.

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Went to camp this past weekend. I will post photos from it and yak about the actual experience, but let's just get it out on the table that I am waaaaaay too insecure for my own good, or anyone else's for that matter. And I kinda hate it. I don't really know what to do about it though. I can't help it at all, and that bothers me quite a bit.

I hate feeling like this!

Out.

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I want a new job. It's so much stress, working with idiots. And I'm not the biggest fan in the world of getting in trouble for lord knows what, while the guy next to me goes for a joyride on the clock with that same scolding fella. I know my brother's probably going to say that I need to leave my job, and should have a long time ago, but I'm scared to not have a job that can give me 40 hours a week, for over minimum wage... as sad as that is to say.

Maybe excuses.

I wish I didn't need some fancy paper saying I completed college. I really think I'm capable of doing a lot of things, but every place needs that little stupid degree.

As for the other stuff, things haven't gotten any better regarding little changes, but no worse either. But I will always expect for the worst. Great, hm?

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So confused, kinda lost... I just don't forsee him changing his ways. And his ways don't mesh too well with how I think and feel.

Ahhh, shit. Things that upset or hurt me should probably be fixed, one would think. I guess we'll see. I can't sit around and be tore down though.

If you didn't know, my self esteem and self security (?) are basically non-existent. So I make high demands, for my own sanity's sake. And my trust has been thrown out the window too, which kind of ties in with the first sentence of this paragraph.

Yes, I ask for ridiculous compliance. But he knows where the door is too, right? No gun to his head, as far as I know.

God, it sure is nice to just put this out somewhere and not just bottle it up... or throw it out on the table, only to be either ignored or completely disregarded.

Whatever. Princess, over and out.

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So, being the awesome lady friend that I am, I actually enjoy doing nice little random things that say, hey I was just thinking of you and wanted to let you know I care. Buuuuut those little things are also nice to get once in a while. Or, you know, ever. Little gestures that show a lack of caring or are a downright killer to my already relatively low self esteem are NOT nice. At all. Sigh.

What's the deal, compadres? You've all know me at least via LiveJournal for several years now. Do I really suck that badly as a human bean???

I just needed to get that off my chest. But let it be known that I'm super annoyed.

On a similar note, someone posted something on Facebook that I thought was rather true... "Boys think women are hot. Men think women are beautiful." Saddened me slightly too.

Frustratedfrustratedfrustrated.

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